.. i cant belive its already SUNDAY...arrghhh.....
...im trying to have life right now....suckx doesnt really work out.....lolsh.....
...but anyway.....today ish weird........CHRIS called me about an hour ago........wattah SURPRISE...lolsh...so yeah...she called me today jush to check if im doin okey.......i was like WHY? ..WHATS WRONG? ..WHATS UP WITCHU? ...YOU JUSH SUDDENLY CARED TO ME ...lolsh...and shes like .. SHUDDUP MA! ..and she told me that she went to the church today and she heard mah NAME was mentioned lolsh.........and i was jush like... SO!? .....and i joke at her that maybe im jush getting "FAMOUS" now that people mentioning mah name even at the CHURCH .....lolsh.....and shes like NO MA! ....the priest mention your name to the souls that should be prayed..... and i was like ....WTF!?? .......lolsh.... i cant hardly talk lolsh...and chris kept saying this over and over that she jush called to check if im still ALIVE or something ...LMAO....on that time she makes me wanna hit her on the face when she said that....nyahahaahaha.......well i thought i'd share it with you mah weird story....hehehe....and i guess thats all for now.....

There’s a guy who admires me,

He admires the way I deal with my life,

He loves watching me doing things by my own,

For him, I am different from other girls,

I live in my own world with my own notions,

I do what I want to do,

I don’t care about others’ business,

I am free…

I laugh out loud when he says that,

Coz I know that it is not true.

He doesn’t know who I am…

The fact is,

I hate doing things by my own,

But I have to,

Because I have nobody…

The other fact is,

I’m not different with other girls,

I still need attention and care,

I still need love…

The other thing he should know is,

I am not free,

I’m lost.

"So its VALENTINES who the fckin cares?!" *shrugs* …words of a bitter dateless woman on valentines. My line actually. Verbatim! But in reality it sucks to the bone! I hate that I don't have no one to cuddle up with, no one to spend a romantic night with, no one to say "I love you from the bottom of my heart" or on a more anatomically correct term, "I love you from the bottom of my hypothalamus!" LMAO OK I know that sounds funny but yup all the emotions we feel comes from the lymbic nerves in our brains so its totally wrong to say I love you from the bottom of my heart because our hearts don't feel nuthin! Their main purpose of existence is to pump blood to the rest of the body 24/7! Ok enough. I don't wanna get too scientific here or else my friends will start callin me Doctor Les again! Heehee So goin back…don't you just love listenin to sappy songs on Valentines? This type of music just sets the mood to lovin! Don't ya agree?! *winks* I am a succer for soul/rnb music. So here's a few songs that I play on repeat that you guys prolly listen to or to the newbies to soul/rnb music would appreciate specially in this time of the year. Most songs on the list came from the 90's and a couple or more from early 2000. Hope you'll find the time to check em out cuz I know you are not gonna regret it! ;)

I need to go shopping. It makes me stress less. Or is that just an excuse?

day off ko ngayon thank god....kakapagod talaga magtrabahp lol....

anyways...its Snowing..hate it when it snows then all the snow melts away and then it starts to snow again like 12 more ft coming down once again -.-! but yeah I woke up seeing WHITE out side my window....

But yeah the snow falling down is so beautiful don't you think? Kind of reminds me of life yenno?..cus life can be so beautiful at times. but it'll turn ugly at one point sooner or later. just like snow..it'll come down all white and pretty..but sooner or later it'll turn ugly into black/brownish yunky snow ehh..every beautiful thing will eventually fade again.. =\...i love staring outside the window ..when it snows I usually sit on my bed and stare outside my window when it was in front of dha window..but now its not anymore >=| but its okay (:

Ok, yeah, i confuse myself alot..like...hmm...

1. What if we arent real? maybe, life is a dream, or, like a video game, or movie, or somthing.

2. How could there be a God, when nothing cant come from somthing? there would have to be somthing higher than God, that created God, and somthing higer than that, and a never ending line of higer beings....

3. What if every one on this world, is actualy my imagination, and im insane?

4. is it true, that bumble bees, really arent suposed to beable to fly? if so, then why can they?

5. If God is real, and really does have so much power. then, why is there so much pain, and suffering?

6. God is physicaly impossable. Somthing cant come from nothing. therefor, there would have to be somthing higher than god, a creator, that created God. but then, there would have to be somthing else, that created, whatever it is that created God. There would have to be a neverending line of creators, or, a continous circle. It dosnt make sence. the list would have to go on forever. no begining. no end. but every thing has a begining and and end....umm, did i say this already? eh, oh well...

7. What if life is virtural reality, and we are all hooked up to some machine that is controling our lives...

8. Why did i have to fall inlove?

9.Why does love hurt? isnt it suposed to make people happy?

10. what is love, really?

11. Can a person ever truly stop loving someone?

hmm....

My NEW Bestfriend Sony DSC-P200

nabili ko siya kanina nasira kasi yung isa ko e...

before...

after

Ha, I guess it's the time for me to write a reflective, thoughtful, and bittersweet entry about all of the wonderful experiences and things that I have gone through in 2005...pfsh, right. But it is pretty hard to believe that the year went buy so darn fast. It does sound pretty cliche, but each year seems to go by faster and faster; seems like just yesterday I was 5 years old and throwing those pop rock things.

This year was pretty eventful for me. I've come to realize the true importance of friends, and yes they're there to have fun and have a good time, but they're also there to keep your head up and listen to what you have to say, and offer support no matter what. I also got a somewhat brief taste of what relationships are like, and they're actually not all that complicated once you omit what's on the surface. My eyes have also been opened up to how complicated connections between people can be. I guess you can say you only learn from experience.

Regrets? I'd say none. I somewhat believe that everything happens for a reason. You just have to learn from everything. Yeah, some things happened that I didn't agree with, and things happened that made me wish for something more, but you just have to live with it, and accept things how they turn out. Hopefully, next year (aka tomorrow), I won't make the same mistakes I did this year, maybe even try to step out of my box a little bit.

But hey, no matter what happens, somehow everything always manages to turn out alright.

"it`s funny because when you do something riight, no one remembers. but when youu do something wrong, no one forgets."